well im back to my normal depressed self... Sometimes i just feel like getting in my bed get under the covers and never come out again ..... i just dont see the point in it anymore.... I tried to commit suicide about a week and a half ago but my friend kind of talked me out of it  i kind of regret him talking me out of it... cause now i gotta live with the guilt as well ^_^ w00t w00t ^_^  blegh i didnt have anyone to talk to *sniff sniff* and i couldnt write this on my vampirefreaks profile cause 4 of my friends have profiles there too and they keep up to date to my journals  so i pretty much decided to write oh here :S heh i dunno ..... i think they have a link to this site too but as far as i know none of em come here I dunno sometimes i wish i didnt have to lie about being happy i wish i had someone to talk to because everyone i know or at my school comes to me for help ..... even people i dont know ask if they can talk and heard i could help them i do and surely enough next week they come back to either say thank you or my advice worked ..... i guess that now everytime i get close to someone to talk about stuff they immediatly start talking about their problems and leave me no time to talk about anything so i just keep quiet now and for the most part i just nod along and act like im listening when honestly im not ....... but lately my depression has been getting worse ...... and everything just seems too surreal